Letter To My Mother on Mother’s Day

Maman,
I love you intensely. Mom, you shadow my day… allowing sunshine and shade when and wherever needed. Sometimes when I think of you, I am moved to a smile or to tears: You have loved me in the way no one could ever love me, and you have done it consistantly. You have been a Proverbs 31 woman. I have been sudying what this woman should look like and yet you have been modeling it for me day by day, year by year. Not many daughters can say, unashamed, that their mom is the best… Mom, I can say that with a steady voice and heart overflowing with joy. I have not always shown you that I love you, and I have taken you for granted so many times… for that I am so sorry.
I have come to the point in my life where I am trying to figure out who I am. With my “10-steps ahead” thinking, I have come to ask myself a pertinent question recently; how do I want to be remembered? The simple and firm answer is: I want to be remembered as a Godly woman. That is the most important quest that I will beset out upon. In being a Godly woman, I want to be a Godly, supportive, selfless wife. I want to love my husband fiercly. I desire to model what a Godly woman looks like through my future marriage. Once, I have lived through a bit of marriage, when the Lord wills it, I desire to have healthy children. I want to learn how to love each one of my children differently but equally. The best example I have had to look at is you… You have loved each of us, individually, with our flaws and nuances. You have also loved dad fiercly, never giving up on him, praying for him, and pleading for him. Most importantly, you have loved the Lord magnificently. You spend your time studying, teaching, praying, loving, and showing Christ to me and others around you. You rarely bring attention to these things… but don’t doubt for a second that I don’t see what a precious jewel you are. You are the pearl of great cost. I too, desire to be that, one day.
Mom, you have been there for me every single time I needed you. You have answered countless 2 am phonecalls, welcomed a puppy and kitten into your house because you knew I needed them, sat in the Trinity parking lot with me twice, and held me while I cried buckets of tears. You have rejoiced with me in my achievements, driven thousands of miles to see me dance, and loved me even when I was not nice to you. You have let me go through phases in life, laughing along with me as I come out of them, and you have never missed giving me a hug. I wish I could say that those days are over, but they aren’t… I still will need you to answer the phone at 2 am, I still need my dog and cat, and I am sure we will be revisiting the Trinity parking lot many more times. (Not to mention, a few more hundred good cry sessions.)
Maman… I love you intensely. I love you, and I still need you.
Your only Daughter,
McKinley

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